she represents everything good during the grunge period
Her loveliness withstands the test of time- She is timeless.
Demri was always fiercely independent with her many sides
Nine-year-old Amanda was the most interesting child in the class. She was my favorite child. Amanda was very intelligent and very naughty. One day I followed her home on the school bus. When the bus stopped at her house, she dashed ahead of me and ran into a nearby wooded area. I continued to follow her into the woods and eventually found her sitting in an old stuffed chair having a cigarette. She thought that I would reprimand her since I was an adult. But I said nothing.
The following Sunday, I spent the day at home with Amanda and her mother. Amanda totally controlled her mother. She constantly gave her orders and proceeded to put on her mother’s nail polish and makeup. Amanda smoked openly in front of her. Her 8-year-old cousin Amy was coming over, and she was very excited. All day long, Amanda and her cousin played like children. Every forty-five minutes or so, Amanda would take a break to have a cigarette. Her mother could say nothing; Amanda was the boss.
Just before I left, I looked for Amanda to say good-bye. I found her and Amy in the backyard. They were in a children’s inflatable pool. Amanda was taking her regular cigarette break. -
'Some people are amazing, able to abandon themselves in front of the camera. Tiny was one of those people, and she still is.'
The last time I saw Layne Feb.22, 2000, he was playing video games. Asteroids is what I remember…”get ‘em Layne, get em!” It’s true, to no
avail from his bro’s….I too, tried for 2 years after this last visit, to see him again, until his Dad Jim called me with the news. I had left a note for him on his car windshield wiper in my last attempt, a few weeks before he was found, and his sissy Liz told me she found it on the passengers seat. With that, I knew he read it, and I was relieved.
Sean is one a hero in it…and irregardless of his anger towards Dem’s behavior, Mike’s to boot, and Layne’s,..there’s a whole lot of love there,
Layne Was A Video Game Fanatic
In Greg Prato’s Grunge is Dead, Layne’s mother Nancy revealed that Layne was a ‘video game freak.’ He had a big screen TV, 5 games 5 different gamers. dawn to dusk. Layne was even wearing a Metal Gear Solid video game shirt in his final public photo from Halloween 1998.
2. Krist Novoselic, Mark Lanegan, Mike Inez & Sean Kinney Tried To Help Layne
According to Greg Prato’s Grunge is Dead and Mark Yarm’s Everybody Loves Our Town: An Oral History of Grunge, many of Layne’s rocker friends refused to give up on him and still tried to see him during his reclusive years. Sean Kinney would try to visit Layne at his home, and he frequently called him to no avail. Krist Novoselic brought him food, hoping he could save him after losing Kurt Cobain. Mark Lanegan and Mike Inez also went to Layne’s home and bang on his door trying to see him.
3. Layne Was Going To Record With Taproot In 2002
Taproot were recording a new album with Alice In Chains producer Toby Wright in 2002, and wanted Layne Staley to sing on a song, according to Mark Yarm’s book Everybody Loves Our Town: An Oral History of Grunge. Wright contacted Staley shortly before his death and Staley agreed to record the song, privately in a studio in Seattle. Layne told Wright, “Wow, I get to perform again.” Wright was preparing to fly up to Seattle to prepare the studio for Layne’s return to recording when he got the called that he had died.
4. Layne and Mark Lanegan Discussed Collaborating
“We talked about [working together] from time to time,” Mark Lanegan told CDNow in April 2002. “But that was contingent on him having the energy and focus to be able to work, and I guess that didn’t materialize.”
5. Layne Considered Sending A Demo To Jerry Cantrell
Though never verified, there have been rumors that Layne worked on a home demo called “Everyday” that he planned on sending to Jerry Cantrell, possibly as late as 2002.
6. Layne Went To A House Party And Hung Out With Ann Wilson
In the Heart book Kicking and Dreaming, Ann Wilson revealed that Layne attended a party at her home around 1999. She said after most of the crowd left at night Layne was still there, and she wanted to go swimming so Layne followed her to the pool. Layne didn’t get in, but sat in a chair sipping a beer. He told her as a kid that he excelled at swimming, he said “I loved to dive into water.” He said the water felt like a whole other world. As Layne sat there and Ann was swimming, a huge meteor went over them and it lit up Layne’s face. She said he looked like a kid again, and at that moment there was no darkness in his life. Layne said, “Did you see that? How close do you think that was to us, Ann? Do you think that almost hit us, Ann? How lucky are we to have seen that?” Ann responded that it was beautiful, and Layne retorted, “Do you have any idea how rare it is for a meteor that big, and that bright, to come that close to us? We are really really lucky people Ann. You and me.”
7. Bob Forrest & John Frusciante Visited Layne’s Home
Around 1999/2000, Bob Forrest and Red Hot Chili Peppers guitarist John Frusciante tried to help Alice In Chains frontman Layne Staley get clean. Forrest recalls the story in his book Running with Monsters: A Memoir. Forrest had gained a reputation at the time as being someone who could communicate with addicts, he had helped Frusciante get clean in 1997. Frusciante was hesitant to visit Staley because he didn’t think you could really preach to somebody about getting clean, but Forrest was adamant about trying to help him.
Forrest called back Staley’s mother Nancy and told her that they’d try to help him, though he told her he didn’t know if it’d work. Nancy responded, “Layne’s got an odd sense of humor. I told him that John had gangrene once. He said, ‘In his arm? That’s terrible, Mom. John’s a guitar player. He needs his hands and arms. Me? I’m just a singer. I can get by without them.’ I know he was joking, but I don’t like to hear stuff like that. Can you try to talk sense to him?”
Forrest agreed to, and he and Frusciante visited Staley at his Seattle condo. Forrest says that Staley’s mind clearly still worked but that he was “a million miles away.”
Bob: “Hey Layne. What’s going on.”
Layne: “Nothing. I know why you’re here.”
Bob: “Your Mom’s worried, man. You don’t look too good.”
Layne: “I’m okay, though. Really.”
Staley was playing video games while they talked, and “pretended” to listen according to Forrest.
8. Layne Was Heavily Into His Art Work
Layne was very into his artwork during his later years, frequently buying art supplies that were scattered around his home.
- Being the CEO of my own life . Climbing to the top of my own ladder. Building my own throne.
- Changing who gets to speak and why. Understanding the power of my platform, and sharing it. Lifting up people who deserve a greater audience.
- Giving thought to the projects I choose. Not doing anything I will feel silly about promoting. Having dignity, integrity, good taste: “Build a good name…. Eventually, that name will be its own currency.” —William S. Burroughs
- Expressing myself effectively. Giving artistic endeavors my all. Being honest but not attention-seeking, compliment-fishing, or pitiful.
- Treating my readers with respect for their intelligence. Showing my genuine gratitude without being cheesy or excessive. Knowing that they do not owe me anything, and vice versa.
- Accounting for praise and criticism alike with a grain of salt. Letting myself get excited about fun opportunities and sincere appreciation for my work, but remembering not to let it define me or become a priority.
- Having good friends with whom I can share mutual support, trust, understanding, and love. Sticking by the people I can talk to about anything. Knowing the value of a good sleepover. Being there for my loved ones.
- Keeping in touch with myself. Remembering who I am. Creating work just for me.
- Reading books, watching movies and TV, and listening to music that inspire and teach me. Connecting with humanity through art. Finding myself in others’ creations.
- Showing appreciation for the good things and good people in my life at all times. Not taking anything for granted. Focusing on what I do have, not what I don’t.
- Taking care of myself, feeling embodied and healthy.
- Making memories.
- Being present.